Monthly Archives: April 2013

Bliss . . . anxiety

I know that I am not alone in this.  It’s a sick cycle.  You have an amazing day or maybe an amazing week, then you pause and think about how everything in your little corner of the world is going great.  Anxiety creeps in and steals your bliss.  Why can’t we just stay in the moment and full of gratitude?

What happens is fear begins to take hold of the mind.  We fear losing the people in our lives that are helping make it so incredible.  We fear losing our job, getting sick, the list goes on and on.  Our mind immediately starts preparing for the worst, the loss of all that we hold dear.  Whether you realize it or not, this is where the anxiety comes from, in preparation for the worst.

The moment I feel that I have opened my heart I feel a period of bliss and opening, but shortly after it turns to a feeling of vulnerability and I become terrified that I shouldn’t have opened up.  My mind jumps to future scenarios.

No matter what we try to mentally prepare for, our preparations are, more often than not, thrown by the wayside as we just react in the moment.  I’m not saying that making preparations for things isn’t important, but we invest too much time in them.  We delude ourselves into believing that we can actually avoid the uncomfortable or “bad” things that may or may not be heading our way.

It takes hard work to let yourself be permeated in bliss and peacefulness.  It might even feel unnatural.  Trust me it’s not.  You are not alone in this either.

Everything in this universe is impermanent.  The moment we have all that we want we become all to aware of how fleeting all things are.  The people we love will die, our bodies will begin to fail us, and our homes will crumble.  We delude ourselves nearly every moment of our lives into thinking that this can all last.

When it comes down to it, it’s an act of bravery to allow yourself to open up to this world and all it has to offer.  Plus happiness is contagious.  Truly happy people don’t start wars.  They don’t judge others.  They radiate positive energy.

All we have is this moment.  This breath.  Let yourself be saturated  Feel your happiness fully.  Feel gratitude for it.  Radiate your bliss while it’s there and when worry tries to snatch it away, know that it’s true that this will pass, but right now your heart is full.

That being said, I have the most amazing people in my life.  I know that every person that has crossed paths with me has offered a lesson.  I feel so fully supported and incredibly happy.  I know the worry will soon come, but I am prepared to recognize it and let it go.  Right now, in this moment, every cell in my body rejoices in the abundance of my life.